I slept pretty good last night, woke up at 10 and got ready…went out for a walk but I just couldn’t get “into” it, so I’ll be doing the elliptical later. I’m really not in the mood, but it’s days like this that really count! It would be so easy today to just say “screw it”, but then I wouldn’t be healthy. Why is being human so damn hard sometimes?Â

My cousin has been put on bed rest! Crazy, huh? I hope our other roomie steps in and starts doing some stuff around the house. It pisses me off to no end that he doesn’t do dishes. Does he think this is 1952 or something? Jesus. It’s when I have to deal with crap like this that I’m glad I don’t have a man… and then I get horny and wish my GIRLFRIEND was here! HA, got ya, didn’t I? You thought I was gonna say I wanted to get fucked by a guy with a big, hard, throbbing purple headed love warrior, right?

Well, sometimes that’s nice. I do miss cuddling with someone to watch movies and snuggling with a warm body while I wake up in the morning. I miss holding hands with someone or going back and forth over what we’re going to have for dinner. Seriously though, talking to you all does help a little bit with the loneliness. Human interaction is so vital to our spirits, and though that may not be the preferred form, it does provide some comfort.

Doing this job is one huge roller coaster. There are SO many benefits and so many drawbacks. At least I can’t say that my life is boring! And on that note, why didn’t anyone email me any suggestions on what I should have on my list of things to do before I die? There’s not one guy out there who reads this journal who’s experienced something they don’t think I should miss out on?

I have already done a few things that would make the list. I’ve been parasailing and white water rafting (though the rapids weren’t that intense, I do admit). I’ve traveled to South America and to all three North American countries (including 12 states and WA D.C…wow, that’s not very many, is it?) I think that my list is going to start out pretty basic. There are a lot of things I want to SEE. Going to all of the continents is definitely on the list. As for activities, I want to learn how to fly a plane, go sky diving, learn how to scuba dive (and do it in Australia), learn how to play the piano, go kayaking, do an overnight hiking trip, skinny dip in a tropical pool that has a waterfall, go back to school (not sure for what yet), give birth (yes, someday, I think I might want to), volunteer to do something that takes at least a week and is not in this country, name a road, plant a garden all on my own. I think that’s a good start.

Anyway! I might do some hiking this summer so maybe the overnight hiking trip will be crossed off soon. But I think the first thing on my list of places to see will be Alaska and the Northern Lights. I’m actually quite excited about that, even though it’s probably going to be awhile until I get to do it. It’s nice to have something to look forward to.

Well, except for the time that I’m workin’ my fanny off on my elliptical, I will be signed on all night tonight. As you can tell, I’m feeling a bit philosophical tonight, so I’m hoping for some good, intricate role play calls! Sounds fun to me!

Shout outs for 3/14/06: David…where’s my picture? Come on now, you said you’d send it… I’m really brain storming a sci fi role play….I am! It’s gonna be super fun too, you watch. Just don’t expect me to have it ready next time you call unless it’s at least a few days! And a sorry to my European traveller….sorry we missed each other, I hope your trip is as wonderful as it can possibly be.

I’m really trying to get back on track with the journal writing. I know some of you are concerned about it and I don’t want to lose you all! lol I’d hate to think that you’d stop checking it every day just because I’ve stopped writing every day!Â

A bunch of stuff has happened. As you know, I did go to Erin’s this past weekend. I got there Friday evening and we did some calls right away. For the most part, they went great! We had plans to hook up with two guys, one of whom Erin had met through a friend and thought was interesting. Tall, black, dreads and most interesting of all, from France! He said he had a friend to go out with us and assured us that he was attractive.

We get to this little dive bar we’re supposed to meet them at before we head to a restaurant and the friend was HIDEOUSLY UGLY. I’m not talking mildly unattractive here, I’m talkin’ someone hit him with an ugly stick repeatedly and when he tried to get back up, hit him again. And to top it off, he was eyeing us up and down like we were pieces of meat. I was very unhappy.

We walk outside and they start speaking in French to each other. I looked at Erin like “WTF?” and commented that it was rude to speak in another language in front of people. The semi cute guy asked to speak to Erin alone and informed her that his friend was not interested in ME because he doesn’t like redheads. Apparently he’s quite “picky with his women”. I could have DIED. It’s one thing to be rejected, but I think it’s way worse to be rejected by someone who’s SO MUCH less attractive than you are.

So Erin and I went to eat dinner by ourselves at a Greek place we’ve been before. While we were there, we made plans to hook up with some other guys. These guys she’d met at a party. We drive out a bit and meet them in the parking lot of a grocery store so we don’t have to try to find their place. Now THESE guys were HOT. One was extremely tall with a shaved head and the other was Mexican and had a short beard. Both had PERFECT teeth and were just great looking.

We go to a bar and realize that one of them is completely drunk off his ass and the other shortly informs us that he’s high on coke and x! DUDE lol BUT they were highly entertaining and we had nothing else to do….to make a long story short, we ended up staying with them until about 6 am. The tall guy was all OVER Erin and I liked the other guy but about halfway through the night, Erin told me that she told the Mexican guy that she’s into HIM! So basically she staked a claim on BOTH GUYS, which did annoy me.

We slept late the next day and had planned to hook up with those guys again when we woke up, but we had a lot of stuff to do, so we made plans to meet up with them again that night after the sex toy party that Sabrina was having at the apt. she shares with Erin. I made the decision that I didn’t want to spend ALL night with them again though, so we decided to go out dancing after we hung with them a bit.

The sex toy party was fun! Lots of girls, food, sex toys and I won the first game we played, where we had to shout out answers to questions. I think some of the other ladies were shy but when Sabrina asked “How many sex toys do you have?” I YELLED out an answer right away lol And when she asked if we like anal, I screamed “Yes!” hahaha I didn’t care, I just wanted to win. It was funny cause when she asked our fave position, I didn’t want to explain mine out, so I just yelled “doggy”, even though that’s not really my favorite. It was just the shortest word I could think of! lol

So after the party, we head out to the tall guy’s house. We’d asked him not to drink so we could hang out while he was sober, but apparently that was just too much to ask. He was shit faced when we got there. HOWEVER, I’d been prepared for that to happen and had bought some alcohol of my own!

I had started drinking at the sex toy party and I drank a lot more at this guy’s house. The Mexican guy had gone home to crash so it was just the three of us and apparently when it came time for us to head out to go dancing, *I* was the one who instigated getting the dude to come with us! I do NOT remember it though, I was completely drunk by the time we left.

I had to pee twice on the way lol so we stopped at a fast food place so I could go. The dude was already causing issues and Erin was getting pissed. I was talking shots of Absolut raspberry flavored vodka straight from the bottle! Not a good idea. We get to the dance club and I promptly puke out the side of the car and the guy takes a piss out the front of the car! Erin was freaking out a little bit at this point lol

We get inside finally and the dude is out of control, bumping into people and stuff. Security was all over us and finally Erin got sick of trying to calm him down and said, “It’s your fault he’s here, YOU baby sit him!”

I took him over to a table where some of Erin’s friends were sitting and started trying to get him to sit down. He wouldn’t! And I didn’t really notice this cause the dude had been touching me all night (grabbing my tits, I was rubbing his head at one point, etc.) but I guess at some point he grabbed my ass and I had my hand on his or something….anyway, it SERIOUSLY pissed Erin off and she came storming over to us, saying she wanted to leave NOW.

I didn’t really know what was going on (still drunk, definitely foggy), but I followed them out to the car. Once we got in, I got the great idea that I was gonna go back in (Erin was saying we’d come back) and just dance until she got back. So I went back into the club and started dancing with some of Erin’s friends.

Then it started to go downhill. Erin’s friends all left and the other ones that were supposed to show never did. I asked this guy sitting at the next table over if I could use his cell phone and I called Erin three times and left messages, but she never called back and never picked up. She left the club at 1 am and at 3:45, she STILL was not there. Of course, I’m drunk and freaking out! I could have directed a cab to her place, but didn’t really have the money for that and I didn’t know anyone at the club.

FINALLY at like 10 to 4, she comes walzing back in and says “let’s go dance for the last few minutes!” I was like, “WHAT? Are you crazy? I wanna get the FUCK outta here!” I was so angry, I was crying. She’s ALWAYS late to things, sometimes HOURS late and I’d started to think that she wasn’t gonna show back up.

At that point though, I was hungry. It had been a few hours since we’d eaten and we’d just shared some stuff at the Greek restaurant. So we went to Shari’s and had a surreal experience. The waiter was completely stoned and I was still upset so I didn’t give a fuck what I was doing. I ordered a salad and started throwing my cucumbers and onions all over the place lol The waiter didn’t care though, he was cool.

Erin and I started throwing french fries at each other, trying to get them into each others’ shirts…and then we started spitting ice cubes back and forth too. We had pretty damn good aim!

We finally make it home and collapse into bed. Erin offered to snuggle with me to make things better, but I declined. I was still kinda pissed. Erin had to go to work in the morning, but she got off early and when she came home at 1, I was still in bed.

We decided to take a few calls while we watched a movie, but it was DEAD and we didn’t get much. So then we got ready and headed out to a Superbowl party. Erin is a Steelers fan so she was happy that they won!

We went back to her place and I was supposed to leave, but I decided to stay another night…we did some calls that night too while we watched the movie “Hustle and Flow”. It was good!

Her male cats are like hitting puberty or something though so they were doing this CRAZY MRWARRRRINGGGG thing and one time during a call they did it and I cracked up laughing. I was drinking some pop at the time and it gurgled up out of my throat and out of my nose….the dude hung up and I totally understand. SORRY DUDE! That’s not normally how my calls go down.

Phew, ok. So that’s my crazy weekend. Got rejected by a crazy French guy, hung out with some fucked up guys, went to a sex toy party, got drunk off my ass and puked, got abandoned by Erin, went to a Superbowl party, did some calls!

You might be asking yourself, when did you two have SEX? Well, the only times we really had sex the entire weekend was when we were doing calls. I know, weird, but we were so busy every other minute, we couldn’t really fit it in! It’s all good though, we both had enough orgasms to keep us happy for the whole weekend, don’t you worry!

I have a dinner date tonight with a guy that I’ve never been out with before. I think it’ll just be a normal date, so I should be home by 10 or so!

Shout outs: Thanks to ALL the guys who called while I was at Erin’s! shy guy, Loren, pink panty boy, the coolest “mean” guy ever, and mrniceguy! Thanks SO much, guys. Without the 2 girl calls we do, these trips back and forth wouldn’t be possible. Erin and I thank you from the bottoms of our hearts!

Shout outs for 2/6/06: Got to talk again to an awesome guy who tells me about his adventures with his male lover! Woohoo! I got some Ubu lovin’! *kiss* wonderful as always

Shout outs for 2/7/06: Well, it’s a record! Not ONE guy gets a shout out for this day. Why not? Well, even though I had a nice busy day with lots of guys who had rated me 5 stars previously, only 1 or 2 guys actually left me feedback. And I’m not giving a shout out to a random NF member who did a 2 minute call and the other one that shows up as 2/7 on my feedback shows in my records as a call that happened on 2/8 so that one will be tomorrow. WOW GUYS. What in the world? Oh well….NO SHOUT OUTS FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

Ok, so some people did eventually show back up on Yahoo. I think my Yahoo was acting weird actually…so I feel much better about that, not so lonely.

Yesterday I FINALLY went to see “Memoirs of a Geisha”. I absolutely loved it. I went with three other people. I loved it, two thought it was “ok” and one hated it. So I guess the mixed reviews I read before I went were fairly accurate!Â

Last night I got drunk off my ASS for the first time in about six months. I was just feeling generally depressed about a few different things and wanted to forget/feel better for a little while. I took calls and it was super fun talking to some of my fave callers while tipsy. For the first time in my life, I was actually HORNY when I was drunk. Usually I couldn’t care less about sex, I just want to watch tv, eat, dance or sleep when I’m drunk…but last night, I was SO FUCKING HORNY! I can’t remember the last time I fucked myself so hard.

When I woke up this morning, I was kinda groggy, but felt fine. No hang over or anything. I don’t really get those.

One of the reasons I was depressed is because Erin is so far away. It’s great being with her, but in between seeing her, I really do feel lonely. Talking to her on the phone isn’t enough, I’m a very physical person. I need to actually be TOUCHED. So we talked and agreed that our decision to not date/see/fuck guys because we’re together just isn’t going to work.

As a result, I went on a date tonight. And no, I’m not a COMPLETE slut, so I didn’t sleep with him tonight….but I’m definitely going to, and soon. I’ll tell you all about it when it happens, don’t worry!

So I’m on tonight until I fall asleep and I should be on most of tomorrow evening as well! I have some potential day time plans, so don’t be shocked if I’m not around during the day/afternoon.

Shout outs for 1/12/06: Had a new caller with a MONSTER cock fuck my roommate until she passed out cold and then come slip me the huge salami lol My favorite “from work” caller called and gave it to me while I was sitting on his desk. So naughty! I got to give another sex interview ala Kinsey…those calls are really growing on me. 5th one and I think I’ve got it down pretty well! Sometimes I appreciate the “normal” calls a lot…Craig, thanks Your calls are always hot and always fun!

Shout outs for 1/13/06: This day is FULL of GREAT calls where the guys didn’t leave feedback, sorry, you don’t get a shout out! Thanks to the new guy who loved my head giving skills! I hope you call back again soon and let me demonstrate some other skills! panty boy! *kiss*

Shout outs for 1/14/06: Had a great mutual masturbation/sex fantasy with a new guy. Calls like these are what keep me loving this job. Can’t wait to talk to you again! My shy pro masturbator called again and jerked off to pics of Stacy Keibler, the wrestler! She’s SO FUCKING HOT! Hello to the new caller who waited for me because I was on other calls…looking at my pics and jacking off the whole time. Glad you waited! Pink panty boy…I think I’m in love. Those latest pics of your cock are insane. I can’t stop looking at them. I wish ALL dicks were like yours, seriously.