Boredom
I have reached a depth of boredom that I’m quite sure I’ve never reached before. I’ve required myself to stay home today and remain signed in for the duration so I can make as much as possible before my departure on the first, but I’m starting to think that that wasn’t the best idea.
It’s not just boredom that has taken control of me today, but an all consuming lack of motivation. Of course, I have a lot of things I could be doing. The problem is that they just don’t sound good. Clean? Nah. Make recordings? Nope. Write a new story? Not appealing. Read? Maybe. Watch tv? Done that already. Talk on the phone? Sure, I’d do that if it happened to ring, but so far today it’s been kinda slow.
So what will I do? I suppose I’ll wallow in self pity and finish up this blog entry first of all. After that? I have no idea.
I went on a date last night, my first since the break up last Saturday. I’d been out once before with this guy, but was so drunk during it that I didn’t really remember much about him other than he hadn’t been a very good kisser. He just happened to be the first person to ask me out though, so I said yes. I’m still a bit depressed though so I requested a classic “dinner/movie” type date so I could dress casually and just not feel any pressure to be sparkly and outgoing like I would in a club or party atmosphere.
We decided to go out for seafood and go see the new “Resident Evil” movie. The first part of the plan was genius (especially the part where we got stoned in the parking lot beforehand). Yes, I usually describe myself as a vegetarian, but I do sometimes eat seafood. So yum, I had salmon.
Then the movie. Alright, I guess I don’t have much to say about it except it sucked. Badly. It so super sucked that we almost left halfway through but I didn’t want to go back to his place really so I perservered.
After the movie, we kissed and it all came rushing back to me. Yeah, this is the guy who just sucked on my lips…first the upper, then the lower, and again until I finally pulled away. It was like he was trying to suck my lip gloss off because he needed a snack. I actually laughed about halfway through it. I imagine he took that as a good sign somehow.
He’s a good guy and I had fun, but there I felt no chemistry. It’s sad because I’m pretty sure he’s already way into me. Maybe the fact that he texted me bright and early this morning to ask when he could see me again was a hint. I invited him over to watch “Knocked Up” when it comes out on Tuesday because it’s my favorite movie this year and favorite comedy of all time and I’ll definitely be watching it a few times that day. I guess I’ll go ahead and let him down easily when he comes over.
Anyway, I think I’ll go take a shower. Maybe that will give me some inspiration and by the time I’m done, I’ll have an idea of what to do. Or you could just call me and then I won’t have to worry about it because I’ll have YOU to entertain me. 
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