I went to Erin’s house on Friday and we had a GREAT time. It was her friend’s birthday and I’ve hung out with her friend quite a few times so I was looking forward to it. We went to this one girl’s house and hung out for a bit before heading to a laser light show of Pink Floyd’s “The Wall”. We did mushrooms before we left and I have a few comments on that subject.

I’d never really done them by themselves before and done enough to get super high. I’d never had THAT type of high before and been THAT high. This is gonna sound weird, but at one point, I was so high that I couldn’t really remember how to go to the bathroom! I was looking at the toilet thinking, “Wow, I think you’re supposed to sit on that thing…” but then once I sat down, I kept feeling like I was doing something wrong. And yes, the seat was down.

The laser light show was AWESOME. My GOD, I’d never seen anything like that and yes, the mushrooms did make it super crazy intense…but overall, I think I can pass on doing mushrooms again just as a solo recreational drug. I didn’t like being that high and feeling a bit out of control. Erin likes to do them only about twice a year, but I think that’s probably because xtc doesn’t affect her very much when she takes it!

We went back to the girl’s house after the show to do some more shrooms and then go out dancing, but by the time we got there we just decided that it was too late and ended up staying there. We didn’t do any more shrooms either, just chilled out and watched her friend give us a poi show. You know what poi are, right? The things that people spin around that are on fire? It was awesome.

Then Erin and I went to eat by ourselves. We went to Shari’s and we get there and there’s this group of like 6 or 7 super young teenage boys that are obviously drunk and/or high on something…they got kicked out shortly after we arrived. Well, one of the kids didn’t like that and he started kicking rocks at the windows and yelling and screaming at the restaurant and running himself into trees! It was fuckin’ weird! Then we watched them go across the street to a 7-11, where one of them proceeded to try and get naked inside the store! They finally left, but it was totally weird.

Then while Erin and I were waiting for our food (which ended up being so nasty we didn’t even take more than 2 bites and ended up not having to pay for), I looked over and saw FLAMES shooting up to the ceiling from one of the stoves. I said, “holy shit, the kitchen is on fire,” and pointed over toward it, at which point Erin looked over. What SHE saw was a guy standing in the bar area mopping (she said it looked like he was dancing) and the fire. Then the guy saw me pointing and I guess he thought I was making a pass at him or something cause he stopped mopping and flashed a peace sign at me.

It was so surreal and ridiculous, I don’t think I’ve laughed that hard in YEARS. Ok, maybe not since rubber sheeteria (long story), but I thought I was actually gonna hurt myself laughing. And yes, someone did finally come and put the fire out. Later as Erin was eating some of my broccoli, she figured out what had caught on fire. She said the broccoli tasted like flames. lol After that we went back to her place and passed out. I left around 1 when she headed to work.

I came home last night for my date with marathon man. I have no comment about that except for to say that did happen and “Catch and Release” was a stupid ass movie.

I talked to “the boy” yesterday on instant message for a bit too. He’s so confusing. It’s starting to sound like he didn’t really mean to break it off with me completely, just punish me a bit or something. I guess he just didn’t know who he was dealing with. When someone ignores me for days and then says they’ll mail back a movie I left at their place, I take it to mean that they’re done and don’t ever plan to see me again. I guess I took it more seriously than he thought I would. I guess we’ll keep chatting and see what happens. I’m open to being friends with him and maybe even dating him again depending on what he says to me.

Today I went with my cousin to a bridal shop to help her try on wedding gowns. That was fun! I should be on and taking calls all night tonight!

Final note, I finally passed that chick on Niteflirt! YAY! I’m still ahead of her for now, but wouldn’t be surprised if she pulls out ahead of me again a time or two in the next few weeks. I think the competition is fun, even if it’s all in my own head! Hope to talk to you soon! *kisses*

Well, I know a lot of you have expressed sympathy for my situation, so I’ll give an update. I posted a personals ad day before yesterday and the boy saw it and emailed me. We ended up emailing back and forth for a bit and then talking on the phone for about an hour. It was hard because even though we were discussing serious topics, we were laughing and joking around like we always had. The bottom line is that he just wasn’t willing to give me what I needed. I hurt his feelings at the end I think by telling him that I was going to start an affair with my ex boyfriend as a rebound, so I sent him an email and apologized for that. I think maybe we’ll end up being friends. I still can’t tell whether he expected me to ask him to come back.

I’m definitely going to Erin’s today! It’ll only be for one night, but will definitely be worth it. We’re gonna go to a laser light show and then out dancing. I’ve gotta come back early for the date with marathon man. He’s making me go to a restaurant by myself! I’ve never done that before and I’m not looking forward to it. I wanted to take my cousin with me, but she can’t find a baby sitter so she can’t go. Then I have to go to the movies by myself! This is a bit of a nightmare for me, but hey…whatever, I guess. I do want to see the movie, so I guess I’ll endure sitting there like a huge loser on a Sat. night at 7 pm. by myself.

I’m off to the doctor for a routine check up and then when I get back, I’ll be headed to Portland. *kisses* to shy one for missing me while I’m gone. I’m sure you’ll be just fine!

I probably shouldn’t be writing up an entry right now, I’m in a super bad mood. Why, you ask? Well, it’s a combination of things really…things I can’t really talk about on here. I’m having some financial issues stemming from having taken so much time off recently and spending a lot at Christmas. I’m not destitute, but the savings I have is for taxes and I can’t really afford to carve into it. To top that off, I’m still missing that boy. Stupid, huh? We only dated for like a month, but he was so constantly in my life for that time, I just miss being missed. You know? I miss having him blow up my phone constantly with texts or calls and knowing where he is/what he’s doing and when we’ll talk next. I know I deserve more than 3 days to get over him, but I just feel so depressed about it. I think if he’d at least talk to me, I could move on…but he won’t.

I did have a GREAT weekend with Erin and I already miss her. I might go up and visit her on Friday and come back Sat. cause I have a “date” with marathon man on Sat. that I need to be around for. Man, we had some great calls this weekend. Shy one is someone I talk about in here a lot, but lately he’s really been there for me and I appreciate it so much. Our call with you really did help cheer me up on Friday and the one we had last night really made me feel better. I guess I figure that if there are guys like you out there, I might be able to find one someday.

I had a session with my trainer yesterday and today I’m just gonna go jog at the park before I pick the baby up from day care. Oh yeah, my baby sitting duties have been cut WAY back. My cousin is working full time now, so she takes the baby to day care in the morning and I just pick him up somewhere between 2 and 3 and keep him til she gets home around 5:30. Sometimes her man gets home earlier. He usually takes a nap as soon as I get him home too, so it’s really not a big deal. I actually like spending time with the little dude. He’s 10 months old now and can pull himself up and walk around holding on to stuff and crawls like a champ. It’s cute. I can’t wait til he starts walking and talking!

Anyway, I’m gonna head out to the park. I’ll be on tonight though, hope it’s as busy tonight as it was last night! *kisses*

Oh crap, I almost forgot! Thanks SO MUCH to Johnathan, who admitted that the watch was from him! It’s a Christmas present that arrived late…and I completely love it! *kisses all over* to you for getting it for me.

Ok, so I’ll just start out by saying that I got dumped today! No, not by Erin…by that boy I wrote the story about! I confronted him with some things yesterday that I wasn’t loving about the relationship and he responded by freaking out and deciding not to talk to me anymore. I know, I can hear the gasps around the country as this entry is read, but hey…everyone isn’t for everyone, right? I mean, he just couldn’t handle the fact that I asked for 5 minutes of pillow talk after sex. Oh well!

Erin IS here though and we’ve had a GREAT night. I cried over the boy for a little bit, but then we got a call from our shy one that was almost an hour and a half and after that, I just couldn’t be depressed. Not only that, but Erin brought me an unexpected present! Check it out, it’s a beautiful watch that I put on my wish list not too long ago! I love unexpected presents! Now there was NOTHING in the package that tells me who bought me this! Who did it? Please tell me!

I’m not sure what we’ll be doing tomorrow, but we’ll undoubtedly be on to take calls at some point during the day. If you want to call, send us an email and we’ll do our best to sign on!

I know it’s short notice, but Erin’s coming tomorrow night and we’ll be doing calls together! I hope it’s busier tomorrow than it has been lately for ME when I sign on. It’s been slow on the phones and on instant message lately. I feel kinda lonely when I sign on. I guess that’s what I get for daring to take a couple of days off a week for the past few weeks? *pout*